A while ago I took a personality test and the results showed me that I am an introvert. I already knew this because even as a child I always preferred being on my own and doing my own thing but with the below explanation I now understand why. What most people don’t seem to understand is that it is not something you choose to be; you either born an introvert or an extrovert.
The proper definition of an introvert is someone whose energy is recharged by being alone and who will feel drained of energy when around other people. Many people think introverts are shy or quiet but this is not the case because around my friends and family I am quite loud and uninhibited. I only have a few close friends( I prefer this than to having 100 acquaintances) whom I can have deep conversations with – I don’t do chit chat or small talk. I refuse to talk to someone I barely know about the sports or the weather quite frankly I’d much prefer just being with my own thoughts then.
I generally don’t like parties and am usually the first one looking for the exit but am sometimes bullied into staying longer by my extraverted counterparts who get their energy from being around people and cannot understand why I do not feel the same. If you do happen to spot me at a party you’ll find me sitting with one or two people in a corner or quiet area having a converstion.
In meetings and discussions I cannot make on the spot decisions like extraverts, I prefer to think things over before making a commitment or decision. This doesn’t mean that I am dense I just process information differently. Most of the worlds greatest thinkers and inventors were introverts; all that time alone and you bound to make some kind of a discovery.
I love reading and can do so for hours on end. Or wathcing my favorite TV series. For me that is an escape and not a dance club full of people I don’t know. People like saying to me ‘oh but you’re so boring’ or ‘you should get out more often’ or wait for it, my personal favorite ‘how you going to get a boyfriend if you dont go out often ‘ A) I don’t happen to find my activities boring B) I get out often enough and C) I’ll meet someone doing something I love as opposed to being forced to go out just for the sake of hooking up with someone.
Being an introvert is also why I prefer running, playing squash and yoga. It’s something you can do either alone or with one other person. Even surfing it’s just me and the waves. I didn’t last long playing soccer, way too many people way too often.
Some of my pet peeves include: people showing up at my house unanounnced, my phone ringing, people constantly asking me if I’m ok(yes I’m ok this is just how my face looks), being disturbed when I am busy whether it is at work or when I’m at home relaxing. It might seem as if I’m anti-social; but really I am not. I love going out and spending time with my friends but will not be able to do so if I don’t get enough alone time.
So I’m finally done apologising for who I am and will not be guilt tripped into doing anything or going anywhere I don’t want to.